I sit on the balcony of my Medellin penthouse and wonder about the past year. So many things have happened - some by choice and others by situational circumstance. I am not satisfied. While I have gone so far is a short time there remains a fire inside me that needs more. I want to think through what has me feeling this way.
I feel there needs to be a base of daily commitments that are baby steps toward getting me where I want to go. The steps it takes to be successful, happy, satisfied, connected, and keeping my word. I have done this all my life. I can remember ever being satisfied for very long. Over and over I have gone through the roller coaster ride of planning change, taking action but not sustaining things. I want that to change even if it is just one important item that is yet to be determined.
I have so many written plans to improve and change. In some areas, I am stellar. I am a planner and very good at breaking things down to small, palatable bites. I am good at knowing the priorities and understanding the value of working a plan. I am not always great at sustaining. In fact, I am not very good at it.
I have a blank canvas to paint. Financially, I am in a good place. I have safe comfortable places to live. I have a new vehicle and the wherewithal to go where I want when I want. Right now, I have very little holding me down. I have opportunity in front of me for potential business but need to decide if I am committed to the work it will take to make it something worth the time and money investment.
Relationships are in a okay place with the exception of one where I have not had contact for two months and it continues to eat at me. That said, each of the relationships I have need lots of work. Again, I am far from satisfied.
Health-wise, I am in a pretty good place. I am under 180 in weight and eating better, drinking less but again an area I want and know I can improve. I know what I want. I know how to do what is needed. I just need to do basic things constantly to improve my overall health. I will never be a nut about it. I am blessed with a good base to work with I just want to go to the next level.
So the challenge for me to to build something with a strong foundation that can withstand the test of time and outside influence. I have never been good at just doing one thing at a time and maybe now is the time to try that approach. I am not sure I can slow down enough to just do one. It will be a day of thinking planning and taking small steps. I am in a great place to move forward.