It is just past 2 am and I sit at my desk in our Ft Myers condo overlooking the water. My life has changed so much in the past 90 days - selling our family home and everything in it, T living with us while trying to get a visa to join her husband in Saudi, the complete change in structure within our company, and making so many decisions on where to live, where to call home, and when to leave my job to retire. The amount and speed of things coming at me has impacted me deeply. My sleep is finding a new pattern that is disturbing - go to bed at 10, wake up a t 2, work until 4, and sleep until 6. Too much swirling around in my head.
Kim, T and I left home yesterday, dropped one car to have a $700 car door dent taken out, sat delayed for 3 hours in CID, arrived in Ft Myers late and wanting to see my first sun set here since April went to take the convertible out and for the second time in 30 days the car did not start. I blew a gasket and vowed to sell the car immediately if not sooner. I have calmed some but me an unreliable vehicles has never worked. I think I got that from my father who had a Ford early in his life that he claims to have pushed more than he drove and he never owned another Ford the rest of his life. This 2002 BMW M3 is on its last leg with me - today could be its last.
After we rented a car, we headed to the grocery to get a few fresh things. I spend so much time in this Florida home last year but left in late April and six months wiped out my knowing where to find everything in my third new place in the past 90 days. Kim and T are taking on the project to remodel this condo and make it ours. This week they removed all carpeting in the bedrooms and office and replaced them with manufactured wood floors that look incredible and quoted from our general contractor "they will last longer than you will." That sounds like a challenge.
Today I will work from here with interviews calls and emails before we head back to Medellin tomorrow. It will be our second trip to Medellin this year, the first for T and the first for us during the rainy season. I am excited to go back and stay in our recently renovated condo in el poblado. It will be the first time we will be in the thick of things and able to easily walk to 55 bars and restaurants in a great tree-lined setting that speaks so loudly to me about where I want to live when I retire. I am interested in feeling the vibe of the city from an ownership perspective and try to determine how it will feel to call the wonderful city home.
In two hours, Kim and I will drive to a beach, watch the sun rise and talk about our lives - we will try to make sense of it all. I know we will not figure it out but one foot in front of the other and we will at least begin to better understand what we each want in this new chapter of our lives.