I have been back in the US for less than one week. Things are considerably different. Simple text messages from one of my family are like gold that lift my day. I look forward to talking or seeing family and friends not really caring what we do or how much I have to go through to make it happen. My life has slowed and I find more value in small, simple things. I feel the difference and see how that approach reflects back to me from others. I only wish I could have learned this lesson earlier. I then hope that I have truly learned the lesson.
I have yet to find a rhythm here is my new home. What little I have is scattered in tubs, boxes, and suitcases. Very few things are familiar. I have my orange coffee cup. I have a few shirts and hats that take me back. However, most everything is new, different, or foreign. I believe it is far more important to accept the reality than fight it as it represents the consequences of the decisions I made.
Next week, I head back to Colombia. Thus far, I have been in Colombia 133 days in 2016. I received my Colombian Visa which allows me to enter and leave without limits but I do not have my cedula yet which identifies you as a person in Colombia. Colombia has changed me and how I look at things. This past year has changed me. What has occurred, would change anybody.
I will be in Colombia for two weeks before returning to the US. It will be more of a short vacation in a familiar place. At this point, I have no dated plans to return yet I know I will. I have a few things that need to be done and other things burning in me. I have not invested the time to fully think through what I want and need and how I can address both.
I am healthy. In relative terms, I am in a better place than I have been. There is still much to do and accomplish but I have the time and confidence to do what I want and need. Not many people have that luxury. I need to ensure I use this time effectively.